Wats e point anymore

U tell me to forgive u..u say u know u have said stuff that hurt me..

But again it happens..

Each time we talk abt our issues it just gets worse..we can't communicate anymore..

I feel so shitty inside when u say all stuff abt what meaningless life n stuff..it makes me feel that ya I sld die earlier to need not face these issues and more...

There is a hole n gap between us that is getting bigger n bigger..we hardly text each other anymore..I don't hear from u at work anymore..it's like we live our own lives now and just pretend we are husband and wife and do what we need to do to show like we still care..at least that is what I am getting from u..

I wait up for u n the conversation just throws me off..pointless and makes me feel worthless

Hurt n Pain

We had a fight last night and some words have left bad scars in me. I don't think I can handle another kid and so does he. We both cannot commit to one kid what more any others. He said I was thinking of stuff to counter attack his words but that wasn't in my head. At one pint last night I really lost hope in our marriage. Like we were living different lives and all. He said I was making it seem like what I was doing was a big deal and that I was all about me. I was making it seem like I was the big issue and all. I don't know about him but I feel our relation has taken a turn for the worse now that ash is out. I'm not sure if its his hours not here with Ash or not with my in general. What is this we are in this together when you're hardly ard?