Hurt n Pain

We had a fight last night and some words have left bad scars in me. I don't think I can handle another kid and so does he. We both cannot commit to one kid what more any others. He said I was thinking of stuff to counter attack his words but that wasn't in my head. At one pint last night I really lost hope in our marriage. Like we were living different lives and all. He said I was making it seem like what I was doing was a big deal and that I was all about me. I was making it seem like I was the big issue and all. I don't know about him but I feel our relation has taken a turn for the worse now that ash is out. I'm not sure if its his hours not here with Ash or not with my in general. What is this we are in this together when you're hardly ard?